My life is a series of falling over, awkward conversations and public humiliations.
My school parking lot is surrounded by balconies, which the students enjoy standing on so as to observe the life that goes by down the stairs. As I waited for my mom to pick me up today the most adorable dog waltzed into the parking lot and the natural dog loving instinct I carried forced me to my knees and sent a whistle out my lips, “Come here beautiful” I said as the school watched from the balcony to witness what was supposed to be a cute moment. The dog ran towards me and when he got really close just turned in the other direction and all I could hear was a resounding “OH!” From the balconies above and it does not sound as terrible on paper [well … blog] but it was actually dreadful. Now, the reality of the situation is that the puppy was probably just adjusting to this new territory and probably wanted to go exploring, and he came back to me later but the whole thing got me thinking.
We all take life and ourselves a little too seriously way too often! We get embarrassed when we laugh too loud but that is what makes life! Awkward conversations are the most honest conversations and being tongue twisted always means we are just being ourselves. Is it just me who wants the raw pure version of everyone I ever talk to? For so long I was trying to live up to the whole ‘public figure’ expectation I forgot how nice it is to be myself.
My friends brought this up so shout out to them for inspiring the post. “Girl I wish your fans could see how you behave in school, I cannot believe they think you are a civilized human being” quite frankly I don’t understand either. Before we say “action” I’m having photo shoots in connect coffee with the creative director bare foot because the heels will break my back! I will always be shoving waffles or doritos down my throat like I have not seen a meal in months… My point is, do not ever turn off your personality, that is what everyone will remember. Be brutally honest always, be painfully awkward and just be a unicorn if you want to be a freaking unicorn.
I am so glad to have surrounded myself with people who love my personality! Find people who want to listen to everything that runs through your beautiful brain. Don’t just sing in the shower and dance in the mirror. Skip down the streets, twirl in the mall and laugh a loud hearty laugh! I would rather be remembered for my warm hugs and all my kisses than my strive to do everything to perfection.
So stop looking flushed and apologizing for talking too much, I happen to like your goof.
Hey, and it is completely fine to not have anything figured out, do not compare yourself to other people the only way to ever learn anything is to experience then we make the decisions. Be bubbly but do not be afraid to show emotion, to cry and to love and to feel. You sound most beautiful when you are saying how you feel.
Song of the blog: 8TEEN by Khalid
-Yours truly, Kiki.
See, I changed it to “yours truly” which I even prefer!
So because they will be angry if I do not name them: Ivy, Vyola, Winnie, Fifi, Coco, Annie, Bev and Gemma. Richie, @mvngo_juice thank you for listening to me. Xoxoxo
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Love all my readers most of all. Kisses